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    • Early morning thoughts

      11 months ago

      lain246 Sponsor.

      I still have to upload photos from RTX and write a journal for the time I spent there, but right now all I can say is that I wish that small event never came to an end. It may be silly to say, but volunteering at that event and just being there in that bubble of camaraderie and purpose was not only stressful, but strangely fulfilling. It didn't destroy my concerns about RT and its stance with the community, although those were assuaged at the end of our duty a bit, and the glow of the experience kept things pleasant for a while. I had a team, I had more common ground with friends I had already made from Sidequest and last year, but now that feeling has slipped away. I had a semblance of that thing called faith.


      I miss it. I miss seeing everyone in those blasted yellow Griff shirts, I miss feeling like a part of something better than just my pathetic self that wasn't just for dollars or baubles. I miss feeling satisfaction after working and not hating what I was doing with that precious resource time. I miss meeting strangers who were not dicks and actually meant it when they asked how your day was going. I miss being genuinely thanked for helping, for being present at all. I miss getting folks riled up or excited when staff came to sign and take photos with fans and members of the community. I miss getting folks to actually chuckle or smile at my stupid jokes or attempts at banter. I miss feeling like I actually fucking mattered towards something, towards some people.


      The carnival came and all was joyous and gay until it was packed up and everyone went their separate ways. I long for it to return, with the lights and the sounds of some other world, but that's not how it works. No matter how much I wish.


      Promise to write a proper journal and tag everyone I can. Just tired, feeling like shite, and needed to just write something besides words of anxiety or worry.

    • Another bump =)

      1 year ago

      lain246 Sponsor.

      Hey folks, today is the day for @Audrey's stream to help her and her husband out. Here is all the info, so if you can please pop in and help or send good vibes =) Also, there be some goods in there

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    • Spreading another journal

      1 year ago

      lain246 Sponsor.

      @Audrey has done some writing and is looking for folks to help with a poll here http://roosterteeth.com/post/51266982


      She's writing stuff folks, and that is awesome =D So let's help out

    • For the lovers of Bloodborne

      1 year ago

      lain246 Sponsor.

      I've been watching this fellow on the youtube called Plague of Gripes and I think this animation will tickle those who have stalked the streets of Yharnam. Enjoy! And honestly....how long do you think it took him to just draw and animate all this?


    • Journal about the site and community for feedback

      1 year ago

      lain246 Sponsor.

      I'm a bit late on adding to this,and I have to put in the disclaimer that I am not the most active person on here at present for a number of reasons. When I do lurk though, I've been seeing some posts from friends and friends of friends about the state of things as they are still, and it's not too comforting. Yet, the point of this is to help provide feedback and not go into my usual depressed and cynical self, so here goes.


      In regards to the site, it doesn't seem like a lot of the community functions have been fixed or implemented yet. One such thing would be the sponsor chat not being in the drop down menu for either "Community" or "Sponsor," so I'm not entirely sure how one would find it unless they already found the link from another user I think. Another point that I can think for the site is the inability to share user generated content with other users; allow users to share cool things found on here with other users instead of sharing it off towards other social media =)


      If anything, I would like to see RT try and get traffic flowing to the site for things besides the content; I mean, the website has been referred to as a home by quite a few among both the community and staff, so that should be a goal to reach for. This is partially from my feedback of six months ago, but perhaps encourage staff interaction with the community aside from promotional journals for personal brands or RT properties on site. One of the nicest things I recall from before last years RTX was simply reading a journal from a staff member talking about an encounter of their day, something that I could personally empathize with and be "yup, been there lol"


      I have also seen a few posts about the video player having issues on here, ,but I don't usually make use of the site for watching things these days. I'm more interested in seeing RT put a focus on making the website a hub for the community and staff to exist on, rather than it just being a platform to watch their content.


      This took far longer to write than it should have,but I hope I was able to be constructive in this at least. If you've read until the end, I thank you for your time *bows*

    • RT Sidequest

      1 year ago

      lain246 Sponsor.

      Those interested in RT Sidequest events, I recommend reading @kriss ' post here. They're opening up some more tickets....so, yeah =3

      http://roosterteeth.com/post/51266324

    • It's 4:23 am....ugh

      1 year ago

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      I'm writing this as I wait for five so I can splash water on my face, brush, and slowly drag myself to the car to pick up my co-worker for the store meeting. The air in my room is warm, stagnant despite the fan growling in the background, almost as if its trying to force me to close my eyes and just say "fuck it. go to sleep." Amazing that I've been feeling that way all week and yet here I am; typing, thinking slowly, and trying to calm down. Also wondering why we have to be back in at 6:30 after getting out at 11:30-seriously, can we just hide?


      Past week has been; well, it's been a mix :Issues with work, personal life with its usual concerns of the future, disillusionment with a certain company, and just feeling bad about myself. Combination makes sleep seem like an eternally lovely idea, but can't stay asleep forever I fear.

      Of course, I'd be fibbing if I didn't mention there being some good points for this week. Overwatch came out and I'm not terrible with Soldier:76, and I was actually able to catch one of Jackie/Kriss's streams. Seriously, if you do not see her stuff, then please do yourself the favor and watch a stream. Fun, interactive, and she beat the fucking Dancer of the Boreal Valley on like her second try! HOW?!


      I haven't been on here much. Ironic considering the disillusionment I mentioned above, but it's been a combo of work and just not feeling like anything I write has significance really. I mean, I haven't even been writing at all much recently, which ties into the feeling bad and not being certain about the future. I used to write all the time, but now I just scribble scraps and feel like my head is full of cotton or the clock slamming its hands closer to the start of my shift. It feels like I mostly just wake up, go through some of this frustration, lurk here and there, watch youtube before work-rinse, repeat,


      *sigh* Will write again soon, but have to get moving. How is everyone doing though? Are you enjoying Overwatch too? And have you watched any of the shorts?


      ~Thom


      p.s. Pardon any grammatical errors. Haven't slept and extremely rusty at this point ^^;;;;

    • Update

      1 year ago

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      On Saturday February 6th, my grandfather passed away at around 2am down in Florida. He was in a coma when he passed, but apparently was not recognizing people before slipping into it. He was 87 years old and suffering from dementia after a complication during an operation for his pacemaker. My Mother found out about his passing after she landed in Florida, and I woke up to her phone call just thinking it was a wake-up /I made it safely call.


      It hasn't hit me yet I think. I haven't been crying although I've wanted to a few times while at work and driving home at night. Dziadek, the polish word for grandpa that we always used, was in the words of my brother "a mutt," being both Czech and Polish, and was a good man. He was there for me and my brothers when we were growing up; he would drive us to school, take care of us at the house while Mom worked, and he was the one who shared a bed with me when I was young and scared. He would later complain "You kick me, Tomek." He didn't have the best grasp of English, that was our grandmother's part, but we could understand him and we ended up learning a lot of curses from him that Babcia usually got mad at us using. I can't type one, Polish is weird, but it's something like "rip your legs off and stick them up your ass." At least that's what Mom told me later on.


      Dziadek used to be very active, always trying to go for a walk or ride his bike-he even scared one of my co-workers at the gas station once, just walking off to get some pizza at the nearby store without saying anything to her. Whenever we went for walks, we'd talk while he would play lottery, something we tried to keep from Babcia who knew anyway, and he'd listen to my complaints about a certain relative when others would just ask me to stop or say "there's nothing you can do about it." I don't think he liked the idea of getting old like some of the folks we had seen on the Cape and while on vacation in Florida, although he ended up the same way. He had to use a cane, he didn't ride his bike anymore after falling down once on some road in Floridia. It was strange seeing him seem so tired the last time I was down there. My mother said he was scared after that fall, that he got dizzy if he moved his head too much, and while it made sense that he wouldn't want to go out like he used it still seemed weird considering how he always was.


      So far 2016 has gotten off to a terrible start, and when this hits me fully I'm going to keep thinking about how I never got to go down one last time like I told him I would. I'm gonna remember talking to my Babcia after work, hearing her say she's okay while her voice was straining to not cry, and it's all going to suck for a very long time.


      If you made it to the end, I thank you reading my ramblings tonight.



    • Please take a look if you can =(

      1 year ago

      lain246 Sponsor.

      Hey folks

      Signal boosting for @Rogzilla whose kitty passed a little while ago. He and his family are trying to make up the vet bills, so he's offering commission slots. Here is the journal he posted about everything http://roosterteeth.com/post/51190289 If you don't want to request a commission, then please just send him some love since it's never easy to lose a furry companion =(

      Thanks for reading folks and I hope everyone is doing alright.

    • IT'S BACK! IT's BACK!

      1 year ago

      lain246 Sponsor.

      My star has returned! No email from the support staff this morning, but the star has returned and all is well! Praise be to @Adam and the support staff, to anyone who brought back that little star and alleviated my confusion about this all! TODAY IS LOOKING UP!

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      (by the way, would it best to reply back in my original email to the support staff and let them know that my sponsorship has seemingly be reinstated so they don't have to worry/deal with another issue?)

  • Comments (13)

    • drew FIRST Member Star(s) Indication of membership status - One star is a FIRST member, two stars is Double Gold Duckster

      1 year ago

      New Friends! :D

    • LadyOddDuck FIRST Member Star(s) Indication of membership status - One star is a FIRST member, two stars is Double Gold Call Me Duck

      1 year ago

      Happy Valentine's Day!


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      • lain246 FIRST Member Star(s) Indication of membership status - One star is a FIRST member, two stars is Double Gold Sponsor.

        1 year ago

        <3 Thank you

    • Desayjin FIRST Member Star(s) Indication of membership status - One star is a FIRST member, two stars is Double Gold RTX Guardian Emeritus

      1 year ago

      Hey Thom! I have a user asking questions about experiences with the VIP badge for RTX. Would you mind jumping onto the RTX 2016 forum (Questions thread) and sharing your experience with him? Thanks!

      • lain246 FIRST Member Star(s) Indication of membership status - One star is a FIRST member, two stars is Double Gold Sponsor.

        1 year ago

        ;_; I just saw this. The game of catch up will be done soon now that life is getting back to normal around here.

    • Xcalante Sentry The Defiant

      1 year ago

      Hey thanks for the add! Did we meet at RTX?

      • Xcalante Sentry The Defiant

        1 year ago

        OH MAN WE TOTALLY DID!!! DUDE!!! HOW ARE YOU?!?! =D

      • Xcalante Sentry The Defiant

        1 year ago

        OH MAN WE TOTALLY DID!!! DUDE!!! HOW ARE YOU?!?! =D

      • lain246 FIRST Member Star(s) Indication of membership status - One star is a FIRST member, two stars is Double Gold Sponsor.

        1 year ago

        and I just noticed this comment >_< I feel like a jerk now! Sorry man, I've been okay. A bit miffed about some of the stuff going with RT and the community, but alright otherwise. Trying to move at some point this year. How about you? Doing okay?

    • Dopp ROLL TIDE

      1 year ago

      So how was RTX?

      • lain246 FIRST Member Star(s) Indication of membership status - One star is a FIRST member, two stars is Double Gold Sponsor.

        1 year ago

        Ugh so late for a response T_T SORRY! In short, it was great. As I mentioned last night, nervous in some situations, but still a good experience. Seriously, I should have bloody asked you about all that before heading down to Texas xD but maybe next year? Assuming things go well of course

    • StryfeRyder FIRST Member Star(s) Indication of membership status - One star is a FIRST member, two stars is Double Gold

      3 years ago

      Cool meeting you at PAX, hope you get a little more into the site

      • lain246 FIRST Member Star(s) Indication of membership status - One star is a FIRST member, two stars is Double Gold Sponsor.

        3 years ago

        It was a pleasure, man =) I'll be trying. Unfortunately work sort of killed me right after the convention. I was able to meet some of the folks at the booth. It was awesome =)

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